“I’m Sorry and I Love You.”
There is truth in the heart that speaks those words.
But it does nothing to seal up the crater that appeared in my heart.
Doesn’t stop the tears that seem to come at the most inconvenient times.
Can’t stop the ache that seems to start in my chest and radiate out like sunbeams to the very ends of me.
Won’t keep my mind from visiting and revisiting the “us” that use to be but won’t ever be again.
That apology and that love isn’t going to save me.
Not from this….
Especially when all I wish for is to not feel anything at all.
Your words are just monuments to the nothingness that now lives in me.
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